(
I am writing my first book and this is part of what I have so far completed. Constructive feedback is welcomed. It will be under the label "The Book" for references in the future)
It all started with a scream. Now don’t
misunderstand, not the scream of life or fright or surprise. But of
complete and utter despair. The kind of scream which comes from the
depths of ones soul.
She
stood and watched everything unfold in slow motion. Standing fixed on,
what in her mind, couldn’t possibility be happening. It just didn’t make
sense. Logic was always her way of sorting things out. What was taking
place just
didn’t fit within any web of rational thought.
No one is alive one moment laughing, talking, breathing, and then dead
the next. It simply does not occur. To even give into the notion that it
could or even that it had taken place was completely absurd.
After about forty-one seconds and
someone saying “He was a good man.” it hit. Even if all the numbers
didn’t add together and the moon wasn’t in line with Mars. The cold hard
reality had slapped her awake from the illusion she had been holding on
to.
A month later...
“It doesn’t matter.” She repeated for the millionth time. “Lady
Faith...” He tried again “No!” She insisted, to her the matter was
closed. No other power on earth could change her mind once it was made
up.
There was no reason to continue on
with the fantasy that things would go back to normal. Even as hard as it
was to admit, the death of her father forced her into this position.
"Milady, reconsider. This is not
something to be taken lightly, if your father were here.." the man
persisted. She held her ground, slamming both hands on the desk "No, but
I am here. It doesn't matter what the council has suggested. The choice
is mine. The council has no say in this matter."
She was partly right. The High
Council had no control what she did with her father's estate. Except for
the contracts already in place for the horses, but when those expire at
the end of the year it would be up to her to decide if she wanted to
renew.
The man picked up his cloak that
hung near the door. Shaking his head, he thought to himself, even as a
child she was always just like her father. She did things as she pleased
and be damned the rest.
She stayed standing until she heard
his horse ride away and sighed deeply falling heavily into the old
leather chair behind her. Trying to run her father's business had been
harder then she had thought. Never did she imagine so many would want to
persuade her to sell. She expected the Council but some that stepped
forward with their offers blew her away.
She had letters from almost every
business owner in town. Even the owner of the local pub had stopped her
in the street saying he would "Take it off her hands." To which she had
politely explained she would remove his hand permanently from his body
if he didn't let go of her arm.
"You
died on purpose. To try and teach me responsibility." She said out loud
to an empty room. "Another life lesson. How ironic." she sighed again
and looked at the pile of orders she hadn't managed to put a dent in.
Sitting up she began the task to sort through the orders, the endless
unmanageable sea of orders.
It was well after dark and the
crickets had started their nightly song when she finally crawled into
bed. She hadn't wanted to but her body betray her and demanded sleep.
Her long auburn hair flooded the feather stuffed pillow as she stared at
the ceiling of her room.
Though her body was exhausted her
mind kept going over the orders and the discussion she had with the
Councilman's assistant. Not that she had been surprised the Council was
interested in buying her father's..no HER business but the one whom they
chose to send to make the offer.
If it had been anyone else she
wouldn't have questioned it. Everyone on the Council she knew and for
the most part respected, well almost everyone. The exception had been
sent to make her the offer. His assistant, yes but him none the less.
Faith had a feeling that he had
volunteered for the task. Couldn't confirm this of course, although
finding out wouldn't be too difficult if she asked the right person.
However, she wasn’t going to be bothered by it anymore, at least not
tonight.
She
woke with a start as someone was banging hard on the door to her
bedroom. Climbing out of bed “What in the bloody hell is it to wake me up
at this hour of the night.?” Faith asked as she openned the door.
“I’m so sorry Mi’Lady, but they insisted they see you.” The maid wearing her bathrobe answered.
“Who?” She replied rather annoyed.
“If this is how you greet me I’ll go” The voice said from the shadows of the hall.
She
felt her heart pause and then start again in an eruption of different
emotions. Just the sound of their voice sent chills through. Pushing
past the sleepy maid, she found herself in their arms holding on for
dear life.
“Hey”
He whispered as his powerful arms wrapped around her. She was shaking
so hard she wondered vaguely how he could keep a hold of her.
“You’re dead.” She almost couldn’t say the words. “How can you be here? I saw what happened, Daddy.” She sobbed
He just gripped her harder as she
cried. “I need you to be strong for me.” She looked up at him. His eyes
were sad as he scanned her face for a long moment before saying. “It was
my time, sweetheart.”
“Please, please Daddy don’t leave
me. I can’t do this. I need you with me.” She pleaded, gripping his suit
jacket with both hands.
“I wish I could.” He whispered as
he faded away in her hands. “No!” Faith yelled choking back her tears
and trying desperately to hold on to him.
She woke up on the floor of her
room with a death grip on her pillow. The morning sun peering through
her window. “It was all a dream.” The tears started again and the pain
hit her all over again. It felt as if someone had taken her heart and
set it on fire. The hurt returned like it had earlier in the day.
It was the last day of the
week. She hurriedly went through all the morning chores eagerly awaiting
what came that afternoon. As the clock struck three, she raced down the
hall and out the kitchen doors towards the barn, but something wasn't
right.
Her horse wasn't saddled and waiting
for her at the post. The stable doors were closed. It hit her all at
once, like someone poured out all her happiness on the ground infront of
her.
There wasn't going to be anymore
rides out to their favorite fishing spot. All the trips to town just to
get peppermint candy from the general store was a thing of the past.
She didn't shed a tear as she
slowly walked back to the house. No one spoke a word as she wondered
back into her office and shut the door.
The next few days went on as
smoothly as she could have hoped. The orders were steady and the
business was doing well. She started spending more and more time away
from the manor.
Some took it as being dedicated to
her work, but it was more than just the work keeping her away. Home, if
she could call it that anymore was just a place to sleep to her . There
was no home now.
Rain poured out from the sky and
made the day seem to drag on longer than it should. The scratching of
her pen was the only other sound that echoed off the walls of the small
office she kept in town. Interupting the silence was the unexpected
knock at her door "Enter" Faith said without looking up from her work.
"I had thought I would find you here. " an all too fimilar voice broke through the silence.
She
didn't realize what had happened until after it had already taken
place, but there was her paper weight being thrown across the room and a
disappointing thud when it connected with the wall missing the intended
target.
Dodging the evil paper weight, he managed to ask with an amused grin
"I knew you'd be happy to see me."
"Get out!" she said coldly "Go back
to the hole you crawled out of.." nearly yelling as she searched for
something else to throw.
"Look, I understand you have this unatural disliking for me. "
"Dislike? Oh, dear man it runs MUCH deeper than dislike.."
"Now, Faith you don't mean that.." He said taking a brave step towards her, both of his hands up
Sighing deeply, she didn't want to have to deal with him any longer than she had to "Two minutes." sitting down in her chair
"Good." Lucas sat down in the
leather chair infront of her. " I want to first say that I'm sorry to
hear about the loss of your father. He was a good man."
That word again, was, she
brushed it off and nodded as she had all the times someone meantioned
her loss. "Thank you, I hope it isn't all you had to say to me because
this whole meeting could have been avoided with a simple card, but
please continue. "
"I work for the council now as a messenger. " He said as though she should be impressed, ingnoring her
comment "I decided a real job was better than any of my other schemes."
Nodding again, "They are scrapping the barrel if this is the only help they can get." she thought
He sat there for a moment, waiting
to see if she respond, and when she didn't he continued. "I also came to
bring you this message from the coucil." Handing her a note from his
bag.
"They wish your presence at the
meeting. Since you are the heir to your father's chair, they need to
publicly accept the position or decline it. Of course you know if you
decline, his chair is up for council vote to the next junior member. The
note is a formal invite to present when you arrive. " He said trying to
sound official.
It wasn't that she hadn't excepted
the invite, she had been dreding it. The coucil was important to her
father, she knew this and she knew it had been his dream for her to take
over for him. "Wonderful, I suppose I should have to knock three times
on the door and give some kind of password." she said scasticly
"Actually, since you've accepted the invite. Another letter will be coming with a password.."
"You've got to be kidding."
He shook his head.
Faith gently rubs her eye lids, "Very well. Let the coucil
know I accept their invitation." She looks back up at him. "Now, you've
had more than your two minutes. Get out."
"I thought we could catch up on old times." She raised her head
sharpy and shot daggers at him with her glaze , but he spoke again more
boldly "Have dinner with me, I'm staying at the hotel until tomorrow."
He said leaning forward just a bit in his chair.
"Get out, Lucas." she said again, trying to hold the growl in her voice.
"But I ..."
"Get out!" she said raising her voice. "I don't want to
remember the 'good old days' with someone I wish to stab repeatedly.
You've done you're job. I won't ask you again."
"Very well. If you change your mind I'm at the hotel up the street. You know the one.."
She started to get up.
"Okay, okay, I'm leaving." Nearly leaping out of his chair, with a grin on his face. Lucas hurried out the door.
Another heavy sigh escaped her, muttering to herself about getting a lock for her door, and sank back into her chair.
Faith stared at the invitation laying on her desk from her
reclined postion in her chair. As many times as she told herself the
coucil wasn't important to her, she couldn't deny it had been important
to her father. And though she hated to admit it, the horses did sell
partly on the fact that they were used by King's Council for their army.